( This is what being depressed and religious feels like.... )
"Once I thought the people around me
Were all I ever needed
But now I dream to be alone
I wish the world would take me
And melt the ice around me
That's cold as stone
Maybe then they'd be happier
Maybe then they'd finally be free
Maybe the world would just be better off
Without me...
I can't seem to get things right
I can't seem to stay awake
I try to hold my smile for them
But deep inside I know it's fake
Sometimes I don't know...
Am I wrong or am I right?
And if I was all I had to fight for then I'd fight
But with all my mistakes I can't justify
I have the world to satisfy
I have the world to make proud
I am holding in my breath so not to let the cry out loud
I wish just for a moment
I could sneak beneath my sheets
And live some time alone
Wondering these made-up streets
I wish just for a moment
I could live my imagination
I wish just for a second
I could hide in isolation
I wish I could go back
Re-live my childhood
I wish I could hold on
To the one's who'd made me look good...
I wish that I could cry
I wish I had some time alone
I feel my strength has shrunk
But responsibilities have grown
I wish that they understood
That all I do is try
I wish I could let it out
But my eye's are far too dry
The smell of death
Is my only aroma
My body is awake
But my heart is in a coma
Oh Lord Help Me
I'm running out of breath
I'm not good enough for life
But not good enough for death
Dear Lord Wake Me Up
Give me back the strength I've stole
Oh Lord protect me
From the temptations of the black hole...
" -August Kat
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