I'm usually a fool when it comes to love.
girls often like me then pretend to be with me just to say the three little words then poof! they vanish. they ghosted me like the relationship was never alive leaving me crushed broken torn between love and the fear of love.
toying with my emotions till they just can't get enough.
but then there's you.
you say I love you and my heart just melts.
you say I love you and butterflies turn into fireflies burning holes in the pit of my stomach till I can't breathe.
you say I love you and I wanna die and kill in the name of love.
you say I love you and I start to wonder can I be loved?
or is it impossible?
could every girl be a deceitful snake?
or am I just in love with Lilith?
infatuated by every whims.
mesmerized by the spell that starts with a kiss and end with a touch.
or am I a fool for just wanting something trivial as love?
the questions they seem endless.
but this is not the garden of Eden.
and I'm not some muscled up Adam looking for his Eve!
but when you say the words I love you, I can barely breathe.
those sultry supple velvety words they send me on a ride.
like a rollercoaster just to get me high.
tortured I unashamedly say it back.
I love you.
but doesn't have the same effect.
is this a side effect?
or do you love me without saying?
I have trust issues.
reassuring thing as love seems to be.
as I look you in the eye and say you're never getting rid of me!
yet we laugh.
yet we giggled.
knowing you could never forget about me.
mad in love is a sign of relief.
I laid there.
I hold you tight.
and hope you're dreaming about me.
as I fall asleep knowing you complete me.
©darkmocha
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