Have you ever felt like something is being taken away from you?
Like you are holding on so tight but it's still slipping,
Something that you can't do without,
Something you treasure the most.
Well I have this weird feeling
It feels like I'm loosing something
Something so important to me
Something so so valuable
So precious and expensive
Something money can't even buy
Something only I know the value
So today morning
I woke up with tears in my eyes
I felt so scared
So alone
I was trembling
And wailing
It was like something had possessed me
The feeling was so strong
On the floor I was
Drowning in a pool of blood
We all know I can't do without it
I can't even survive another day if it's gone
That's the only reason I'm trying
That's the only reason I'm happy
I don't want it to go
It came at a point where I needed it the most
And now something wants it gone
Please God don't let me loose it
God you are the one who gave me
Help me keep it
Help me maintain it
I can't write anymore
My heart hurts
My mind isn't cooperating
My fingers are shaking
Vigorously
I can't stop crying
I'm this messed up and I'm still with it
What if it goes???
How will I be?
How will I survive?
I don't wanna loose it
Not now
Not ever.
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain
©mara_pain
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