I hate you yet you rip me to my core.
I don't need you yet the more you force me the scars are tender left fresh burning sore.
I hate you I show compassion for the scars that bleed me so deep.
you dig into my skin makes me clench my teeth.
but the more I scream the more I shout I was nothing to you there's nothing to talk about.
you were a brick wall and I was a wailing screaming banshee and even then you didn't scare about me I wasn't your equal I wasn't a man you took what made me a man and crushed it under your heel.
you crushed all my dreams ignited my flaws to flame you were not my parent, my family you were the agonizing piece of a gritty bloody thought that drove me mad cutting me slow driving me insane.
but insanity is bliss if it means being far away from you!
for 30 years of trauma I bled cuz I didn't want to think of you.
I didn't want your last name.
I didn't want any part of you.
I just wanted the pain to be over soon.
cuz you kill me slow with the fuzzing and controlling and your manipulative nature.
you're like poison arsenic for my uses to be calm outgoing nature.
but I was a kid too young to fight back.
I was a pup with a little tiny bite.
defenseless tortured mentally and physically unable to fight back.
but now I fight back.
with Gnarls and gnash.
fore I'll fight you till you are dust and ash.
blood and dust.
family can kiss my ass!
©darkdeity
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