{Life can be
so much colder}
I am alive, faceless,
without form, In the Void
Lost inside (Soul Evidence)
Fill the void that
roams the earth.
Feelings turning into
dissociation,to divide &
separate the opposites
that try to conquer &
control everything...
Malignant Ego-phrenia
sewing seeds of
self-annihilation..
(It seems we won't let the darkness be integrated)
I can't feel my faith,
(I just can't recall)
I think I sealed my fate
along the way...
Fearing I may have
lost my mind!
we are all individually
wounded & damaged..
(alone in our own way)
like distant beacons
of consciousness;
in lifes desolate wasteland.
Hold on to something
(-Here comes the rain)
This threshold is about to break.
(-Hold on to nothing)
Stay Self-contained
How much more can we
take before we break
unto the dawn of darkness.
(- glistening faithless savior)
Murder me, Feed me
to failure/disbelief..
What does it take
to keep everything, I believe
Won't let this world
get to me - finish me
with the blood fire!!
Let freedom rain,
Somewhere in
these dying days
If I can only find away for escape
from this incomplete,
psychical vision of (Self)
I'm finding it hard to keep
Emotive affect at bay;
the balance is shifting from
(progression to regression)
Causing unconscious sludge to boil up through the surface
releasing all our daemons again
Contradictions buried deep inside
(I'm confused of the fallacious
way we are in life?)
(We Interrogate & reciprocate
the truth until we hear what we like)
(I need to Arise !
& find my own way )
Caught in a wave of
the world around me,
(in this state)
I'm starting to saturate
from the inside out
Will I ever learn the way?
Everywhere I turn, something
tells me to run! (No! No!)
just the burning inside me.!
Even though I press to erase
the feeling of slowly fading away,
these thoughts go on endlessly.
How much longer can I wait?
What does it take ?
( Arise! Soul Life)
I must understand
What keeps me going.
I need a master plan,
something to go on,
something to believe in...
Everything in this
world leaves me cold,
too much deception &
Empty promises of hope,
buried on sacred,
(infected ground)
I need to find evidence
of humanities lost soul image
(The enchanted mistress
of the deep).
Can we make progress?
learn our lesson
(learn ourselves)
This grueling test
without the questions,
the human mind plays Pontius
the heart is cast out, rejected.
Soul-Defendant(The soul is
the conscience...We are
the myriad creatures)
My mind is racing, alone
I feel hollow, to the
point of no return.
Tomorrow I'll be cold,
drowning in my sorrow
(I will lite the fire of being
& re-unite with soul in
the warm embrace
of natures womb,
rejuvenated with the
all mighty life force )
How can we take the test
without the questions?
Some how the truest
points come without reason.
The mind is structured conflict.
The heart's the defendant.
The soul is the conscience.
You are the next contestant
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