self reflection

Why am i here on this earth going through all my mental struggles ive never wanted to hurt my self but now im here what do i do who do i tell my own mother hates me father who is he brothers sisters all hate me grandma and grandpa i feel u two near me i feel the warth of ur love ill soon be with u up above but the way im gonna do this they say will leave me lost in purgatory wait am i already there did i do what the voices wanted to and didnt know it yet how do i get outa here o wait im stuck for ever with my demons and hate in this world i created in my dark little mad crazy dark messed up mind now i see me the hater,controller the piece of crap thats who i am so why should i bring my self down when we can have some fun lets go hurt and hate and make people feel worst then i do and watch them suffocate and wiggle and squirm now kick them when there down mmhmm now doesn't feel nice back to the cold dead empty state but the voices say come on lets just stab them one more time wait no wait as i take a better look thats me the one who is suffocating the geting kicked and stabbed but hey as the blade turns i start to wonder why it feel so nice why do i like this in my mind i hope it never ends me and the voices might just end up being bestfriends