Shards of a happy future
Torn to a sad past
In dilemma of how to deal with the present
My life is a salty mess
One spiced up with most regrets
I'm caught up in it's tricky snare
Not knowing how to end it
Whom to depend on
Coz it feels like I'm drowning
Drowning in the deep end
My life a sea of misfortunes
Problems always friendly
Tears seems to visit frequently
Nothing but pain is my companion
Where do I run to
For there's no one to comfort me
Not even the people I called my own
I'm lost in my own head
The blades just ahead
Torture is all I'm feeling
Misery that doesn't wanna end
Why me
Remains a question on my head
Last night
Was the longest night
Blades tight on my dry skin
Drawing those beautiful lines
With no one to blame
But my miserable self
I always tried to fit in
Always wanted to be good enough
But how much is good
To be enough
Not even an Oxford calculator
Can do the math
Pain just Pain
Is all I'm left with
Days of my life
Slowing by the knife
Tears ooh tears
My only companion
Shades of darkness filling my life
Death please take me with
Life is a series of pain.
©billyjabs
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