May 14, 2012 the day when she decided to left her home,
Its been seven years after she left my friend.
In the age of 14,she started to walk alone with her journey.
Seven years of walking alone and finding herself in the lost world of judgemental society with full of envious people.
Seven years of being alone and still countings.
Seven years of fighting for her dreams and still counting.
Seven years in the battle to conquer all the struggles,facing difficulties and counting
While she degraded by other people.
Seven years of trying to be strong and countings to be getting more stronger.
Seven years when she decided to sacrifice her childhood moments,
Just to secure her future.
Yes! Its been seven years of sacrificing and countings for herself.
In seven years of her journey and still counting, she's feel getting tired but still trying to fight.
Seven years of keeping all her problems and not telling to anyone,because she's afraid to bother her family and friends.
Seven years of motivating herself and still counting.
Seven years of acting innocent, just to hide the pain.
Seven years of wearing her expensive smile, fooling herself through hiding behind her laugh just to show she's ok.
Seven years of making silly things to herself,
Like imagining she's hanging in their ceiling and not breathing.
Seven years of trying to be a fighter in front of her family and friends and still counting to keep everything well.
But the truth is...She's a big coward
Who always choose to be alone,cried silently everynight and don't want to heard by anyone.
Seven years of her journey and countings.
Seven years of asking herself..
"Hey? You still ok?"
"Hey self? You want to quit?"
"Be strong I know you can do it"
"Do I look strong? May be im not."
In seven years and counting her motivation turns into a doubt to herself.
Yes! Its been seven years and still counting my friend she feel worthless but still fighting.
p.s. First poem of mine when i was trying to motivate myself without asking any of my family and friends.
©tinta.poem
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