She slowly slips into the night
Dreaming of the time when things felt right
She longs for the day to come
To have the chance
For some sort of sign
She starts to "bare-knuckle-box-it"
The feelings that have left her empty
Feeling forgotten
Her inner voice tells her she has no more options
She begins to let it all sink in
This desperation and solitude always wins
While she does the best she can
Trying to compose herself in a way
A gaceful poise, she attempts to convey
This feeling can't last forever
It just can't!
One day she feels invinsible to it all
She'll get another chance
To be able to smile again
Nevertheless she gives in
To emotions
Unsure of how to let go of
She isn't quite ready, not yet
If she does....
It is like she just...
Somehow,
Lets him go...
So night after night
Slipping into a darkness
Where all sleep ceases to exist
She waits
She dedicates
And medicates
They get longer
These nights of endless torture
When will a moment come
When she will wait for him no longer
She wants to...
She needs to...
But she won't...
Let him go....
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