A day all but forgotten...a single shot rings out...
who knew this shit would be.......
plaugeing my everynight's dreams.... drenched in sweat in Afghanistan 2004 and 125 degrees...
My eyes burn and head aches.
facial spasms take the place of fear. closer and closer the shots ring near
I hear shots fired and move with grace...
despite the crippling fear I'm trying to embrace...
slowly the fire fight dies...
a sigh of relief......
several bodies lay dead....giving way to screams and gutteral cries....
I remember looking at him watching him bleed...some Afghan guy...
A single round split his head from back to front...
the 5.56 round hit his neck penetrated...just above his right eye..
My job?...
pull security on this man?.... he is not going anywhere......if he tried..
unarmed and dying he looked me in my eyes. It was at that moment.....
I though fuck this guy......
brain matter oozing from the back of his head and blood bubbling in his mouth and nose...
his eyes buldging and bleeding..
I thought to my self this is how war goes...
he lays there...gagging and trying to breathe..........choking and spitting so hard his tounge drops out in front of me.... the bitter smell is new to me...
so metallic...
it's so fucking hot out here. now I'm coping with more than fear. Will God look at me the same? will I ever get over this?
now I'm feeling sick... I vomit and get a grip and watch as his life slip.
God forgive me.
©crash33
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