For many years I’ve been so sick inside
That I no longer know what to do.
It’s the years of running away from life
From all that I once was told to be true.
My parents told me to believe in their god
And then everything would be good.
So I tried for over forty years to believe
And did the very best that I could.
I tried so hard to learn to love their god
But it failed me over and over again.
Now I can never believe in their god
Because it has allowed me so much pain.
And I can feel the sickness growing in me
Like bile down inside my very core.
And the pain of having lost everything
Makes me hate their god even more.
So shove your arm deep down inside me
And pull the darkness from my soul.
Maybe then I can start to believe again
Maybe then all of the illness will go.
©ronvdm777
July 2020
©ronvdm777
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