Look into my eyes and tell me what you see
Listen to my voice and tell me what you hear
You see my smile but not keen to see my frown
You look into my eyes but miss to see my tears
I'm screaming for help inside
But you too busy to notice
I'm at war with my inner self
I'm locked up in the prison of depression
Oppressed by the voices in my head
That get louder and louder as I write this
I'm hiding inside my blanket
Hoping the monsters won't get to me
For I'm scared
Totally terrified by their words
"You are not good enough!
"You are a mess!
"No one cares about you"!
And they continue to torment me
As I helplessly I lay here in the dark
Why don't you see right through me
I'm struggling with things I can't talk about
Fighting battles that no one understands
Waking up in the morning is a hustle
For a night spent in struggle
Darkness my only companion
For in the dark my hands are more active
My fingers get creative with artistic cravings
On my left arm
That no one notices
Band aid every now and then
Just to hide what lays beneath
I'm hurting
I'm in pain
I'm struggling to stay sane
I'm acting fine
And all okay
Hoping one day my salvation will come
Hoping it won't be too late
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain 😭
©mara_pain
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