I think I'm finally grieving you
Feeling the loss of parts of myself that died
Watching my own heart turn to coal
It's no longer sewn together
The threads ripped
And I let 'em
I think I'm finally seeing who I am
And I don't support it
I think I finally see everyone for who they are
And I don't want it
Every song that plays on repeat in my head
Finally connected in yours
I'm a ghost of who I was proud to be
I'm a fool for allowing it to pass
I am filled with shame for needing
Needing a body to press mine against
Filled with disgust
For feeling the loss of you
©joypond
J