hidden and mostly unspoken are the compromising shards of broken glass scattered within from a love lost and gone , the silent anxiouse shaking from within that's returns again and again , overwhelming to even glance at this life with sober eyes and sharp senses I seem somehow to endure this circus sideshow of dancing laughing characters in the same stetting that cruelly resemble the world I once knew and loved , that's all gone away now and I've been left here to pay for whatever it was that I did so wrong to be left in this place alone to ..I guess die eventually or my worst fear ..live this entire sentence fully , it's not that I'm in hell or facing my worst fears for eternity , no more like a sarcastic purgatory set up just for me , nobody here could possibly be the real entity no way but it's pretty much the same everyday , the things that are different are suprise visit situations , events familiar beings and sometimes strange pointless road trips that always are filled with crazy weird situations completely out of my control like scaring me or fuckin with my head is the goal so what happened ? in one of the days or nights I spent attempting to die or maybe overdose while getting high? or the attempted suicide maybe I suceeded maybe I really died , eitherway I'm amongst your world here for the ride and real life seems to be denied .
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