texting with tears in my eyes
sadness to my fingertips
when your sad with happy words I can tell
but my tears don't reach to the words
I text a smiley
you text it back
but when it's back I'm lost
the tears come even more
pushing against my fingers
but my heart gags it
only alows a smiley face and a laugh
I listen to you talk about your new love
and give smiley after smiley
but the smiles in my heart are upside-down
like the life around me
upside-down and twisted to a tear stained mess
I don't know what I'm living for
moving my life here and there
but never knowing what to do
never knowing who I am
hidden behind this fake smiley face
painted on sacrifice
for the real thing on yours to shine
brighter than the sun just the way that I wished
for the love I have is real
I don't know why but it's there
you don't want me though
so I must say ok
and give a smiley
😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊
😢
Naomi~wingedfeature
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