I feel I might as well have failed as a man
I need my mind checked like a brain scan
I pray everyday that I make it to see another day then say amen
I've been stressed and tormented, scared and full of hatred
Pain in my eyes, tears so hot satan can taste it
Walking around as a dead vessel
Feeling like my mental state is getting more unstable
Unable to breath correctly due to my harsh anxiety
Doing my best to hide it from my family
Grew up around much tragity and often think of those who were close to me
Heart brusied more than a forgotten banana
Use to look at God the same way I looked at santa
Life to me never even really mattered
My brain's been scattered like a puzzle and missing that one peice
They say you have not cause you ask not
Guess that's why late at night I never had peace
A hard knot life tied to my memory, hard to release
Left my soul wide open so demons started to feast
Tearing my mind apart like the west to the east
My hearts been folded with a permanent crease
To hide the pain I would blow hella trees
Similar to the hurricane wind by the way it makes my head spin
I was born covered in my mothers sin
I've been lower than the lava in the earths core
I got enough pain to make you scream till your throat is sore
Am I a blessing or a curse cause I'm really unsure
Locked memories got me feeling insecure
Should I hide it or try to fight the storm
I was formed by gravel and life sometimes is hard to handle
Another day is just another battle
I hope my light don't die out like a candle
I see the devil trying to follow my shadow.
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