Sometimes I don't know if this is really me
Sometimes too i can't tell if situation made me who i am
The more I think i can let it go
That's when the pain gets triggered
I keep saying I'm done with emotions
Meanwhile the least things get me hurt
I cried silently
Sometimes in the bathroom
Sometimes in the room alone
I just don't know what I'm going through
I give out my best
I entertain others
I put smiles on faces
In the otherway round
I keep faking smiles to cover my wounds
I don't know the terrible butterfly I'm becoming
I want to forgive
But a part of me hits harder
It keeps reminding me to take revenge
How do I walk with piled hurts
I want to be the old me once again
I want to laugh without faking
I want to stay away
I hate seeing one crying because of me
Maybe situations made me so
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