Sometimes I just want to be selfish and keep you with me.
Away from the world and it's troubles.
Alas, there's a pit I'm dragging you into.
Every promise I've made, and every words of mine I've told you have been breached.
It's the opposite I always end up doing every single time.
I pushed you when I was supposed to hold you close, hurt you with my every word when I was supposed to comfort you and turn my back on you when you needed me the most.
But when I'm on my knees, you be the first to come running to me, to keep me whole.
After getting up what do I do?
Push you away yet again.
I hate myself for doing things to you I never wished to do.
You forgive me for things you will kill others for doing to you.
I'm one lucky bastard right?
Can't you open up and tell me you have had enough, cos everytime you come back I hurt you more.
I never thought it will come to this, but in order to free you, I've got to let you go.
Something that has happened not once, not twice but multiple times will never change.
I can't change, not even for you when I've already tried.
I know it's the right thing to do.
I need to keep you away from a monster like myself but I still need you in my world of darkness because you are the only light I see.
©purplejade
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