Speak

You say I need to speak about the things that are bothering me.
Well, I wish I could speak.
I'm paralytic from my head to my feet.
Let me shout this out.
Can you fuckin hear me now?!
Oh, how I wish you would listen somehow.
My spirit once was clean but it's soiled now.
I can't be me.
I can't love myself.
I am weak.
I can't speak!
I can't stand my reflection.
You can't convince me now.
All I needed was love & protection.
It's too late for that.
I can't paint you a picture.
I can't sing you a song.
I don't wanna play the victim.
That role is so disgraceful and wrong.
Say what you mean.
I can take the pain.
I've been up and down that road over and over again.
When I lay my problems at your feet.
Maybe then I'll feel complete.
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