Some days are just a blur to me.
I never know what the next day or week may bring.
Even with a plan it doesn't always work the way that we envision it.
One moment I'm living on the road.
Never knowing where my next stay or meal may come from.
Much less who I may meet.
The next day I fall in love.
Beautiful you would think.
I had fooled myself to believe I never needed another.
Believing I could do it all without another hand.
But it was arms that I needed.
Wrapping around me.
Reminding me that it's okay to be weak.
It's okay to cry and say that I can't do it all, even though I want too.
Never knowing how lonely I really was.
Blinded to see that it wasn't love.
Just affection that my soul had been dying for.
Depriving myself from another.
I let myself fall just to be seen.
Hoping for anothers touch.
You know where you get those tingles to bring a smile brighter then life.
Staying busy kept me from falling.
I never knew that starving for love would bring me to my knees.
It just takes a moment for your world to change.
Where you see that affection, and love for a life time are not the same.
It was simple, a touch was no longer enough.
I needed to be loved.
©shoultz
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