Stay longer

So i was gazing unto you
Scrutinizing every detail of yours
I wonder how beauty decided to
reveal itself just now
Just now
Am i afraid to forget?
that your face will fade away
and no longer stay
I never wanted to tell you this
For your eyes alone satisfies me enough
Just reply every time i try to...
Just how we used to
Why was it?
the things beside you becomes blurry
I thinks roses have bloomed already
And time, time just dont work for me
The wind was too strong, it was cold
The sun striking at six o'clock
Your hair with its tanned complexion
Waving, flowing smoothly to every edge
Your cheeks turning red
with your lips accentuating your pale looks
I never was behind time,
But to catch the astonishing sight of yours
I had to wake up at my earliest and stay at my latest
For one day, ill be the only one to remember you
The first time we were alone walking
Just you and i, as strangers
At the month of June
I didnt know what to do
I became a dumb jerk of rushing my steps
passing and not talking to you
You walk slow heading down smiling
You are too beautiful
I kept hesitating
I was ahead and i cant see you
Will i talk? Or will i stay numb?
My feet changing in extremes
Ive decided ill talk but first i need to have a whole view of you
to be behind your back i had to change direction till you go ahead
then i can step forward
But when i do, bunch of friends are already
standing beside you
I felt guilt that i wasted that precious opportunity to have you
A song told me to catch you at the end of june so i tried chatting you
But i felt no one to you
It took you long to reply back
I felt i was wrong, so let it be
You happened to wait at a place i can see you, hoping one day, a place you can see me
This time, my fear took place
The place lost its sacred artifact
It has been moved to somewhere she wont
need to sit, she wont need to wait
Never a chance to glance again
I never dared to ask,
I assumed she wanted to escape from the banality of my sight
You left me in arrears of paying you back,
I was thinking, that letting you go
would suffice but it would not
Letting you forget me could, so forget me
But never in my life i will try to forget you
Ill remember as much as i can
The place you used to wait back then I will maintain and decorate
So if you think of waiting there again
Youll have the same chair
So the place complements your beauty
And never to repeat the boringness youve seen unto me
I promise you wont see me
Not because your eyes cant or wont see
But because your eyes wont remember me
That time my hair turned white
Ill be there by your side.
(If you just know how much i love you k.f.j.)