the thoughts of you and what you did are still here nobody can take those away. no matter if youre alive or dead those memories will still be locked in my head. I'll still be mad still be hurt still be sad. It's still hurting cause I'm afraid of what you'll do. You will be okay at first but thats the momentarily you. You won't stop you didn't then you had me love u u had me calling you a friend . I choke up just from the thought of how u treated me left me souless and never said sorry. Why can't I hate you i guess that's the god fearing in me. I follow my father's words above because I don't want to disobey him he never abandoned me fuck why can't i be happy why can't I talk of positive things maybe cause u still here it's still here haunting me
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