You see i sit here search inside of me
Hoping to find whats i can see
Just trying to figure out
Just what these feelings are about
I unsure about just what it is you know
Something stiring deep inside my soul
Its causing me to worry so
Cause im afraid ill lose control
Iknow I got pain deep inside of me
From choice in life that came to be
Im not sure if I ready for the truth just yet
I no that i won't forget
The guilt and shame i carry today
I've prayed it would go away
But hasnt yet
It the price i pay
I made excuses for mistakes i made
Sure thing would be ok
I knew than my life needed change somehow
But unsure how to intil looking back now
I older and and now know
Where i was making choices that has effect me so
I didn't understand then what could been different for me
But now im older my vision is clearer you see
What i do didn't seem so wrong
But know that i changed the way of thoughts
I learned about life this is lessons i was taught
©tinamarie
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