Now
I'm okay
Kinda
I understand the sadness
Just not why
I understand the badness
Of how much I cry
I can see the fear
In my peers eyes
I can't leave the tears
That trickle when I cry
The fact of my depression
Is when I learn the lesson
That days are days
And months are months
But their okay
Except for some
Almost all
Actually
Every fall
Actually
Including
Winter spring and summer
Yeah
It can be a bummer
But so can I
And yes, I know that
And yes it's sad
But when your life has no purpose
And people feel bad
For you
You just
Stop
And not begin
Just stop
Please just stop
I dont want the pity
I dont need the pity
The pity makes me hurt
And it's not just the fake smiles
But the fake friends
The fake laughs
The fake cries
And
The fake people
The fake people get me every time
I dont understand
What makes them lie
They never cared
They always stared
They only cared
When the realised
They put me there
They left me to hide
When they were meant to seek
But when it was my turn
They hid
They hid so well
They disappeared
When I wanted them most
The disappeared
When I needed them most
They disappeared
When i want to die
Then they fear
So i cried
I cried from the pity
And from the fake
And i dont know
How much more i can take
I dont see
What they want now
I want to quit
But if I give up
The people who "care"
Will then be there
Because
They "care"
Because they
"Cared"
Then I wouldn't be there
To help them
But they weren't there
To help me
Why would I swim the ocean
When they wouldn't jump a puddle
Why would I sing
When they wouldn't hum
Why would I try
When they didnt care
You know why
Because I care
If I took my life
I wouldn't care about my pain
I would care about yours
Or hers
Or his
But not mine
No not mine
When I cared about mine
I was self centered
When I talked about mine
I was an attention seeker
When I hated mine
I was depressed
Yes
That's right
Depressed
That's why I'm sad
That's why your mad
That I'm gone
But you'll be okay
That's what you said to me
You'll be okay
But now you see
You were wrong
And I was right
I needed you
And you weren't there
I needed love
And you to care
So now
Stop saying
That it will be fine
Because it won't
You are wasting you time
With the lies you give
It's hard to live
So
Stop
Just stop
Please just stop
I am okay but really not
But you dont care
So please
Just stop
Just stop
©mrs.hurt
M