I'm a thinker
Talking is my weak point
I mean I can talk to you about
Life and love
I could even tell you my story
But talking to you about
The storm raging in my mind
Forms a lump in my throat
Tears swell up in my eyes
And I become this possum
Curl up into my bulletproof vest
To avoid letting you see what's beyond my chest
You might just see how tired my eyes really are
And how my smile hides every tear
How in my laugh I'm screaming instead
And how red my eyes are from laying awake in bed
My mind wants peace
Not just that leave me alone peace
But that sitting on a mountain peace
But sometimes I feel like I'm on one
Alone and everyone is watching me
Eyes looking through me
Putting more clothes on to hide my rage
I feel like I'm in this cage
And my demons picking at me
Reminding me of how worthless my tears are
So I suck them up and keep moving
Because I'm a thinker
And talking to you is like
Razer wire around my neck
The more I try to get away
The more my voice fades
And the cage around me gets smaller
Till my full figured body is pressed between bars
Because I am a thinker
I have lost battles I didn't even start fighting
And broken my own heart because of assumption
I feel the wire around my neck getting tighter
As I hold in my anger
No my rage
No my sadness
Because I am a thinker
My words are few
The words that really define me
I feel like it's a never ending battle
Between what I think and how I feel
My dreams get crushed because of reality
Not the world's perception of it but my own
I wish I could peal away my thinker eyes
And see the world in the way my heart does
But because I am a thinker
I'll continue to play it safe
And be a prisoner of my own thoughts
By:k.m.b
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