I sit still and watch everyday go by
I tried over and over again to be better for you
But there comes a time when life becomes a rollercoaster
Through all the Ups and Downs I was slowly slipping away
Thought I could make it back to the road of recovery
Tears just flow like a river
Sadness sprawls from deep within
I need company
I need just a friend I can treasure
All this sympathy agitates me
It leaves me hopeless
I go out every evening
Trying out my luck
Just to see if I still got my old charm
To my dissatisfaction I will come back home all alone
Can I buy love?
Money makes the world go round
Suddenly when your pockets become empty
Your ‘So Called’ all disappear in the mist of darkness
Never again will I put my trust on anybody
I did not know that the world could be so cruel
Now I spend my nights alone
I guess it is just Me, Myself and I
I am nursing an empty bottle as I try to forget
All the horrible memories
I am still frustrated
Tomorrow I will be officially depressed
Take a bullet straight to my head
Bury me alive
Life is like a game of chess
I wish I had made smarter choices
Maybe I would not have to endure this pain
I wish my Mama was here to erase the pain
I am nobody
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