Suicidal Thoughts

Suicidal thoughts have flickered through my mind, A depressive state of misery one of a kind,My life's story is brutal and cangory, My death in this life would only enhance upon my story, Yet I refuse to let you the people forget my name, So I still stand tall and play life's brutal game, My flaws are so many I'm battered and torn, My scars like trophies on my body are worn, You see a man tall and strong, But my reflection is broken I see the picture not drawn, I see the man in the past so fulfilled, I admire his courage through many a  storm and respect his strong will, But as I gaze deeper because only I can see, The man in the mirror is really not me, Pain has made him weary broken and weak, His words must be written because his voice cannot speak, what you don't know because it won't show is that my heart though it beats it is cold and bleak, Love has a way of healing and killing, It's all in the mind look if your willing, You think you know what you cannot see, Take a second and think what it's like to be me.............. Joshua Patton