"You know sometimes I feel like the pulling the trigger on that gun is the only way Out,
Because no one seems to hear my desperate cries for help as I Shout,
My loved ones always wanting everything from me but I don't get the same in Return,
That's why I have a black heart inside as it's charred by the constant Burn,
It's gets blurry at times when I try to view the long Road,
Feeling numbness and brittle inside as if I was so Old,
No reason to be scared when my life is always in that lane of Danger,
Straight up feel like nobody gives a fuck about me as I'm going to the beat of my own drum as the lone Ranger,
I just want to do things on my own with myself playing the lead Role,
Then maybe when that happens, I'll hopefully start to feel Whole,
So here I am with that decision maker laying right next to me on my Side,
It can go either way : keep suffering till things get better or just end it all and committ the act of Suicide ..."
©jamaree
J