it's so hard to talk when you want to kill yourself.
That's above and beyond everything else,
and it's not a mental complaint-it's a physical thing,
like it's physically hard to open your mouth and make the words come out.
They don't come out smooth and in conjunction with your brain the way normal people's words do;
they come out in chunks as if from a crushed-ice dispenser; you stumble on them as they gather behind your lower lip.
So you just keep quiet.
I feel like giving up is the only option
I just wish I could wake up and not hear my pulse
or my musical heart beat
trust me for me that is the best thing
to set myself free would be the next thing
I just want my heart to rest from the stress of the world
I just wish I could no longer breath and be totally forgotten by God
I just wish I could go to the forever land and never return I just wish I just wish.....
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