Would you believe me if i told you i refrain from placing blades beneath my eyelids
Peircing open my eyes
Or maybe preparing myself an iced glass of bleach
Serving it only on the rocks
As to remind myself of the whiskey
I once ordered sitting in my favourite bar
Or how i try my up most best to not find my self with rocks fillling my pockets
Vistiting the deepest darkest corners of the sea
You see i find it difficult to chop vegtables
The knife spontaneously drags it self to my wrist
Nothing is simple
Simply going for a walk is a fight
To stop my body drifting infront of that moving car
It's hard you see to not kill yourself
When that voice inside your mind
insists on screaming suicide
Where do you go when you yourself are poisoning your own mind
I cannot stop these voices
Im afraid one day they will win
Take over some how
Or maybe it's the real me coming out
All I know is once shes out
Say goodbye
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