before you commit suicide
As you really contiplate your "sh*t life"
Before you officially jump off this ride
Cuz you failed as a wife
Your feelings are just to much to hide
Cuz he looked at you smiling while he twisted that knife
Cuz your kids are full of anger, your family is all strife
Before you cut yourself once more
Cuz it hurts less then what you hold inside
And Now you are so poor, You just wanna die
Can't trust no one cuz they all just tell you a lie
Looking for answers, begging God for signs to explain why
So scared to talk about your feelings cuz you were abused
and don't want to talk cuz you are so shy
Before you officially decide to say good bye
Before you count your money for the bills you can't pay
Overwhelmed with life that words are just something u say
Nobody listens to you anyway
Before you spread your legs to another stranger
cuz you are now just a whore
Before you load that gun and close the door
Think about a better future for you in store
Before you load that rig
Sit down and breathe for a second
Try to really look inside and dig
Search for a reason to live
Start to look at yourself and start to forgive
It may feel as if it would be ok if only they would care
As u alone watch your heart as it just continues to tare
You count all the times you said life's not fair
You look around to an empty support group
So you search for a way to get out of the loop
Why are you the only one if someone's sick
You won't think twice make them soup
But when u need a friend
Nobody can fine the time needed to spend
You say I need you now and it's always,
"maybe, it will just depend"
But what if u tell them if you don't come
Then it's gonna be my end
And they still don't show up
Making you feel like leaving is what you need
so you won't continue to interrupt
People's minds are just too consumed and to corrupt
Before you decide to leave for good
Think about the kid you had that will one day say
I need her right now
But you ended it years before
when you couldn't see how
As they look for their mom that should be around
But you decided years before
to just bury you 6 ft. In the ground
Theirs no inner voice of your wisdom,
you no longer have any sound
Nope, you left with nothing to be found
instead you could of shown them how to make it thru
But instead, you left them with no example
of what they can do when they feel blue
See sometimes people can't love you back
But please don't take personal
what others emotionally lack
Find a reason to live
Find the strength to be a heart for others like you
Be the one who will give
Show then how you make it thru
Tell them what you had to do to finally forgive
Make that dead person inside you want to continue on
Show them mother f*ckers that you are strong
Tell them it doesn't happen fast
that that road is sometimes very long
Before you end it all
Promise me that you will just pick up and call
Anyone that will hold you after you fall
Cuz I promise you this my lonely friend
This life is worth more then what you feel
is a reason to end
Just fake it, try to pretend
Cuz you are here for a reason
Push thru this sad season
Make them all say wow
Trust my words that I say to you now
Get up and show all those haters
Here, let me show you how
this is how, this is the way to make it thru the sh*t
This is me deciding to live
This is me not to ready to quit
This is me saying what ever will be will be
either way, this is me chosing me
This is me saying I'm gonna to hang on
for what's left to see
This is me putting down my reasons to leave
This is me telling Satan
I ain't the one he can decieve
This is me saying i refuse to leave you all here
While you to cry and grieve
This is me chosing to have faith
this is also me to you with a personal plea
Make God the on you turn to
when you are ready to leave
He will hold you and show you his love
This me asking you to also hang on
and choose to believe
This is me saying you always got a friend
In the man above
So don't give up just yet
Cuz im willing to place a bet
That your purpose is bigger then you have even seen
Be the person that others know they can lean
Cuz you know what they feel so you won't treat them mean
I don't know you but I swear that I do care
so hit me up anytime you need someone to be there
If you have something you need to share
Your are someone that all those people will never forget
So please think twice before you do something permanent
that you will for sure regret
Get help and get your mind and you heart set
Be the one that saved someones live that you know or just met
Think twice before you just become a memory, someone's "I will never forget"
Please be a positive example on this Earth
Just prove that suicide doesn't define our hurt
Don't let your feelings get buried in the dirt
Love the you that you were since birth
Live to piss them off
Live to Show those haters what you are worth!
©vickia1953
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