I see through the me i used to be
I don't know what your love has done to me
You changed me completely
I can barely eat
Barely talk
I barely see myself
And im always on my knees
Finding strength
Strength to break free from this bondage of sweet soar love
I wish i could break free
Free from these heavy chains
Chains of hate and self hate
Chains of resentment and pessimism
You took the light in me
Replaced with total darkness
Dark powers inside growing
I never knew love can instill darkness
Thought its all about light and fairytales
But no like always i was wrong
I swallowed the spit of your venom
You hold the antidote to my heart
But you constantly choose to spill the antidote away
Leaving me to die
Here i sleep in my own vomit
How i wish you could come
And clean me this mess you caused
A mess where i see nothing good for myself
Where my dreams shatter before my eyes and having nothing to do about it
Only you can save me from this misery
But everytime you try, you leave me in a worst state than ever before
If a building, I'm dilapidated
I need cleansing
Wash away this dirty
Please save me
I want to be the person i used to be
I want to see through me
Not the me i used to be
Im done with this life of self pity, self hatred and self anger
Im done with being trapped in my own head
I need saving
Please
Someone please
©innahm
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