Everyday there's change,each night it rains , all hell comes down all days r the same .
Emotions uncontrollable, this medicine I take to numb me down . Things aren't that great , emotions r throwing me down . As I reach for the crown of success ,I reach for freedom of self with each inhaling breathe . Cling to life there's the question why, truth is sometimes I think it'd be better if I died . As you walk w a smile they say your a wonderful guy , the inner voice tells you you know that's a lie, people say your so kind . If only you knew what I go through you wouldn't even approach me ,for you see I see right through people like you . I'm not with the ordinary and I never will be , I have scars ,I'm emotional ,I'm not afraid to be a friend to those that are broken ,I'm not afraid to be a friend for those that lock themselves in there own shadows cuz the world won't accept for who and what they are . I have great news for you ,for I am one of them ,I hide in the dark,I put up a wall, haunted by every voice that echoes in my head constant lies and doubt ,mere reflections of my own depression and anxiety, I became one with the shadow of suicide ( Either live or die ). I try not to give in ,sometimes the demons win , sometimes I gain control living for one more night will I ever grow the wings I need to touch the skies of freedom ? Can you live with the fact I exist in your memory , can I be such a friend of yours ? You don't have scars but I do where different two separate worlds we reside in. I roam where the wolves walk ,I roam where the bats spread there wings , I am the embodiment of emotion .
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