I wonder if I ever truly knew how to be strong, Whether that would have to defy the odds of right and wrong. But who's to judge besides the one who picks and chooses who stays and goes. I'm a fucking poet, I can never understand how to just write it or say it, no I'm forced to go on ramble and rants to show it.
Beautiful Daniel, now if you're done lets have a talk. You know who I am, and why I'm here, problem is you seem to view me as something to be toyed with. I'm not, Death waits for no one, and you've been dancing with me far to long. I have a special spot waiting for you, So tell me Mr Hook, why shouldn't I just take you now?
Well Death, I don't have an answer. But yes lets talk. All the times in my life I could have died, no, should have died you stood by and watched. Standing there watching and waiting, and hoping for me to let you drag me away. The worst in me hoping you would, but you didn't. You left me here to die in my head, going on daily battles with the worst part of me in my head. So if its dancing you refer to, its you dancing with me, sure I dance back. But what about the times I was ready to go? had to hide myself in the people I love to not let go. One night in particular I begged you to lead me, Fuck it death I was ready to go. Let me go, If I'm supposed to die tonight, you bastard, let me go.
You speak to me with little to no respect of who I am. See Mr Hook I stood by although out of enjoyment of your pain, to test you. I know of every time we've spoken, everytime I stood by your side in times of pain and misery. I also remember everytime you coward from me, hiding behind friends and family. The time I stood behind Easton and watched him beg you to open up and talk to him, before you could respond you looked to me as if to tell him about you and I. But you couldn't.You coward, you're pathetic, No one will ever truly know us, be a man tell everyone about how you struggle to fight this battle I placed inside your head. Matter fact, no you say your ready to go, and I'm the bastard. well you little shit.
Many times in my life I've been ready to die, fuck it I admit it. I've seen what I need to see, and done what I needed to do. You're right no one will ever know us truly, nor understand the fight we fight. it's crazy see the more you put me through, the more you push me, the more I remember grandma. Yea lets bring that up. I sat there dying inside watching you slowly take the life of her. again begging you take me, you sat back laughing slowly shaking your head no. The fuck was that about?
Ah yes Sharon, beautiful woman, rest easy she's no longer in pain but free of misery. So bow down and thank me. She seems to be the one thing that keeps you from committing to me, I know of the promise you made, although brave of you, its not up to you. So tell me what is it about her that keeps you?
My grandma Beautiful as can be and rest her soul, was perfect to me. She was so much to me. I watched her for years live in pain for the ones she loved, whether she wanted to or not. If she can do it, I have to do it. I care to much just like she did. to know I left friends and family hurt of my departure, I can't do it.
Mr Hook, you said it. See its not your time, you said it yourself you can't. My job as death is to take, when your time is up. Young man your time is not up. You are meant for more, you are meant to hurt. But in time the hurt will heal, and you will know what to do. Unfortunately my time here today is up. This won't be the last time we meet Mr Hook, and I will continue to test you. I Death wait for no one, when you see me again know what time it is. But for now, time to wake up....
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