Crying is the best tool to release emotions
Laughing is the best tool to cover emotions
But crying while laughing, i don't know
These days, I just laugh
Not because I am happy
But because I don't want them to see
The emotion is so powerful
Compensating myself with pain
Carrying the world's burden
These days, I tried to cry
Not because I am happy
But because I can't carry this anymore
Everytime I can feel the pain
I wanted to cry so bad
But the tears are hiding
I tried watching sad videos
I tried listening to sad songs
I tried reading sad novels
But the emotion is so shy
I can't cry
The pain is killing me
I wanted to hurt myself so bad to release
But I can't give them evidence
I can't hurt myself
Everybody will know
The pain I've been hiding
They will know
I can't let them know
They don't need to know
They shouldn't know
©batabatuta
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