tell him I said goodbye

tell him I said goodbye

If you see him,don't tell him how I broke.
Don't tell him my chest felt hollow,
like something inside me had been torn out
and left bleeding where no one could see.

Don't tell him I replayed every word,
every silence,
every moment I should have held on tighter
or let go sooner.

Just tell him I said goodbye

Tell him I stood still for a long time after staring at nothing,
trying to understand how a person can still be alive
and feel like they've lost everything.

Tell him I slept with the lights on,
because the dark was too loud with memories.
Tell him I learned how heavy a heart can be
when it has no place left to rest

But don't tell him that I love him.
Don't tell him that some days
his name sits at the back of my throat
like a word I can't swallow.

Just tell I said goodbye

Tell him I didn't beg,
even though every part of me wanted to.
Tell him I let him walk away
while my whole world quietly fell apart

And if he ever asks
Whether I loved him

Tell him I said goodbye


By Bridget