If I killed my self
Would cry for me?
Would you miss me?
Would it change a thing?
What memories would you have of me?
If I killed myself
Would you regret not doing anything ?
Would you remember my struggles?
Would you read my favorite poem on my burial ?
Would you sing praises of me?
Ones I never heard when alive
Would you bring flowers for me?
Flowers you never gave me while alive
Would you post endless pictures of me feigning love ?
Would you say you talked to me ' a few days before I died'?
Would you even help to make my send off a smooth one ?
Tell me now, what would you do?
Wish I never did it
Wish we talked more
Wish you'd go back in time and fix me
Or wait you'd blame your self for not paying attention to me, right?
Or myb you would forget I existed ?
Brush my death of like my life never mattered
Whisper 'good riddance' to my lifeless face
Smile as you watch the pearl bearers throw sand on my grave
Because honestly my life never mattered
I was nothing but a disgrace
An outcast
No one wanted to be associated with me
No one absolutely no one care about me
So cut the pretence
Stop acting like my two cent life was something
Let me rest in pieces
Let my flesh fatten the ants
Let my grave act as a reminder
Of life that never was
...
Now tell me the truth
If I killed my self
Would you miss me?
Would it change a thing ?
What memories would you have of me?
Please be honest
©magi
Words from my soul
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain
©mara_pain
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