ten toes down
and a long way to go.
searching for my self
with no where to go,
i got my sister on my side,
and only god knows,
lost and confused with no one to
look up to
my dad long gone, and i
don't think he cares
or just to selfish to realize,
that im hurting inside.
no brother to look up to
and this pain is deep
haven't spoken to him in a while
and im not sure if he wants to speak.
the pain is still there
my momma was on that bullshit
always hiding
ducking and dodging
fighting the drugs
the only way she knows how.
im ten toes down
to the deepest hole
look
my sister just had back surgery
and 5 autoimmune diseases
i know it must have hurt and yet
shes still pushing strong
nobody telling her no and nobody
holding her back
im looking at it, like damn
i need that strength and courage
and that positive out look and motivation
i keep searching but i can't find
so i sit in the dark still struggling
trying to escape the pain
im a kid trapped in a mans
body lost and still searching
hoping and praying that one day
ill find
you
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