I want to make my family proud,
I want to fall in love someday,
I want to get married,
I want to have children,
I want to write a book,
I want to paint a portrait,
I want to travel the world,
I want to fly a plane,
I want to sail a ship,
I want to have a friend,
I want to make a difference,
I'm not sure if that's what I need,
I'm scared of disappointing my mother and father,
I'm scared of losing my loved ones,
I'm scared I'll never grow out of this,
I'm scared that I'll never be more then this,
I'm scared that I can't love you,
I'm scared that I can hate you,
I'm scared I'll lose you,
I'm scared to forget,
I'm scared to fail my child,
I'm scared I'll never be a father,
I'm scared of never having enough time,
I'm scared this will get too overwhealming,
I'm scared I won't live long enough to fulfill the dreams I can't conceive,
I'm scared I'll never meet you,
I'm scared that I'm not living,
I'm scared that I can't escape these walls,
I'm scared to believe I've wasted my time in this life,
I'm uncertain of the future that lies before me,
It's dark and yet the sun manages to still shine...
©retroletgo
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