Here I stand
Here near the bottom
I carry my broken soul
Life has taken
It's last forsaken toll
I have no idea
On how
To begin
To pick myself up
They say
It's all up to love
I say
Enough is enough
So gradually
The
Broken
Shattered
Little pieces
In time
Should mend
Because
I won't bend
I will
Try so hard
To laugh
In the face
Straight
Into my own demons
But where
In the hell
Should I begin
Building myself up
Just to fall
back down again
A beginning with no end
Time moves on
Leaving myself behind
Traces
Of who I once was
Lies all but been
Scattered
Nothing else
Matters anymore
My life's
Been forever altered
My heart
My mind
Against myself
It's a raging war
I was
So desperate to love
I only wanted
To be enough
My heart
Still wants to believe
But
My head
is up to no good
Just plain mischief
Taunting
My soul
My brain
My thinking
Like clockwork
It always attacks
Trying to show it
My life cracks
But my heart's
In serious denial
And
it's been this way
For quite awhile
So I swim
In my own
Sloppy mess
My heart
Has been
Fighting against myself
Struggling
To find life
And all its answers
Love
From me
Has run away
Left me here
Stranded
Guilty
For not
Being able to make
All things right
Be loved
Or be left to die
To feel those little things
I loved to feel
I am
Hanging here
Just barely
Holding on
Lend me your heart
Pull me out
Of this mud bog
I lived life
Long enough
To know that I will
Have to tell the Lord
That
I am more important
Than God
My life
Is just more important
I am narcissistic
Laughing at myself
Struggling to find
Myself blind
As I look
For myself
Into an empty
Silent
Mirror
Written
By
Terrylin53
Lenni-x
And
Freewriter
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