Once I had seen a beat up journal,
It was laying there on a street road and it looked horribly tortured.
Like it had been through hell...
I thought --- "What could have happened?" "Did someone drop their journal and not realise they did?
Did someone throw it out.. in a kind of revenge to get back at the person who wrote it?
Did someone throw it --- out themselves; the very person who wrote it?" The possibilities made me sad, mad, angry and hurt. "What kind of hatred had driven someone to do such a thing?" Believe me this was no accident.
It was on purpose... because the words inside described a very loving person, who's soul was one to be hated just because they had felt so much.
As I sat on the side of this road and as I read these beautiful, heartfelt, peaceful words that goes on through all these journaling pages; I realized this journal had been run over at least a dozen times!
A single tear had fallen from my left eye.
This was very saddening for me indeed....
Nevertheless 'I myself' have continued to write in my own journal and I hope my words show the same kind of empathy as this very person who owned this one. This very person; whoever this journal belonged to has given me the strength to keep going, because I myself could've been this beat up if I had succeeded in my mission to end my life as planned.
This road I felt so lost on has given me a second chance, because this very road where I have 'found' this roadkill journal on; it was the same road I chose to end my life on...
However this journal has given me the very strength that I so desperately needed to keep going, it has done just that and so much more for me!
This very journal I have named 'HOPE' now sits on my desk' as I write and as I look upon it I am reminded that words do mean everything.
Whoever you are who has written in this very journal.. just know you have save my life and 'I Hope' you're okay and living well, because you deserve it all.
Your very words have lifted my spirit and has made me become a better person.
You have given me the strength, encouragement and desire to do the same for someone else; I will definitely pay it forward for you and I.
-A.I. Listo☯️
✍: 12.27.2018
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