So, tell me how to love someone who doesn't love me back;
respect someone who doesn't deserve a drop of that,
speak nicely to someone
who only spoke down on me
and forgive someone who hurt me so severely.
For years I have tried to forget about everything but you put a permanent scar.
I tried to earn more than your love, friendship, respect and pride but received none.
I know it is funny how I go silent whenever you are a topic
Talk of mommy issues where the blame falls on me.
I wish the world knew how lost I was without a mother
maybe then they would understand how much I wish you rather left me with my father.
Damn, if parenting were a contest, you would loose.
Now you say blood is thicker than water;
but I would rather have wine run through these veins that shiver with anger.
I lived being your biggest regret.
Sometimes I thought your happiness laid in my death.
You were never there to cheer me up when I was sad and depressed
instead I drank till I was numb.
You didn’t bandage me when I was hurt nor cured me when I was sick.
When I felt unloved, I needed you to tell me how much you loved me
instead I learned the words "I love you" are meaningless.
I needed you to stop me and tell me how important I was,
but you ignored me.
Now when your well has run dry
you come looking for me to quench your thirst.
Truth is, I don’t want you to be part of my life,
no matter how many times you apologize.
©uncle_sam
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