the rain hits my window pane.
the clouds darkened a faded blue leaving my sanity in vain.
the only thought was you.
sweet gentle you.
you were my only remedy in this hell.
you were my only peace.
yet my family makes me wish for death.
yet I sat here.
staring out the window.
staring at the rain.
the thunder and lightning cackling a colorful mix.
the loudness calms me as my heart races.
yet I can't settle the anger in my eyes.
the dead brown of inevitability.
swirling in a darkened abyss.
I wished to feel the rain.
on my skin.
a darkened rain.
a heavy pour.
drowning me.
cleansing me from this hell called a family.
I'd dance in the rain.
just to feel.
something new.
something precious.
something that life can't give me.
yet I am no longer weak when I'm with you.
a pint of compassion.
with my family I die anyways.
but in the sake of losing you I'm dead already.
yet you are my only remedy.
yet you are my kryptonite.
yet the rain.
my family.
I wish it would go away.
sunny clouds.
a fall breeze.
a rainbow just to put me at ease.
just you and me.
far away from my family.
is my only dream.
©darkmocha
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