I thought I was letting go
Starting to heal, moving past you
What a hard realization it is that Im not
Yes I loved you, with all I had
I began to accept as each year went by that there were things I would never get from you
And only now as I reflect upon what was
Is it that I realize you never loved me, you never even liked me
And in the end, you destroyed me, without a second thought
I hate you, but its so hard to let go of you
I want to stop seeing me through your eyes
I want the pain in my heart to dissipate
And the tears to stop falling down my cheeks
I dont want to be branded with these scars of you
I dont want you to win, but I think you've won
All the life that once resided within me, is gone
Now replaced by only a hollowness, a blackhole that I fear or hope will soon swallow me up
©annie
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