sitting spending this time
here left on my own
still fighting these odds
N'd wiping away tears from my face
as they race down my cheeks
trying to escape & get away
from the sight in my eyes
watching quietly- the only sounds to hear
are made in my despair
coming from my soul
as it winces inside
memories burning deep
through the depths of me underneath
& the deeper it gets
so more does the heat rise
& so these be the reasons
of my sufferings from in this hell
that I fell into blind
& blissful are the burns all left behind
as I make sense of their decisions
to forget me so quickly
all an attempt to pretend
& to act that what is
in fact to them just isn't
& as this torment passes through me
I realize it was my loyalty
for these that I love that ultimately
led to my demise
cuz' if it was me who turned my back on they
the many times that I could've
this love that pumps from my heart
& runs through my veins
would not have ever of sparked this
N' then carried the flame
But where's the fairness
in these last moments
fumbling around with thoughts of
one of mans favourite past times
as one lie dying playing the "what if" game
when all they had to do
was just love me the same
before this love that I wore for them
so the the world could see
like armor upon my chest
& feelings down the length of my sleeve
.......I guess till it burns me away
Never will I understand how they can deal me
.......with such pain
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