What have I ever done to you,
to treat me that way,
is it because I was young and you took advantage of that.
You used me and acted like nothing happened,
then you tried to bribe me with your money for me to keep quiet
even though you never admitted to what you did.
Have you ever thought about what you did would turn me into
you made me to look at the world as a monster,
you made me think I was a curse,
you made me believe that everything I touch turns out to be a mess,
you made me believe that everyone is cruel as you are,
you made my tears to always fall like rain,
you made me feel that I am alone in this world.
I tried to forget what you did but I can't
especially when you have the guts to look in my eyes every single day and
pretend as if you did nothing wrong,
I thought you would regret what you did and apologize
but it seems you don't care
I tried thinking positive about myself but when I think about what you did
that negative thought always comes back in my mind,
it's like it's hunting me,
it's like there is something holding me back.
I tried speaking out ,
I tried getting help
but it seems like nobody gets to believe me,
it seems that people think I am a big bad lier.
But I don't blame them because it happened long ago and I don't have any proof of it.
But it's still eating me from the inside.
I guess its just my word against yours.
But I just want to live a happy life just like any other child out there,
Best way to do it ,
it's to forgive you
even though you never apologized ,
not for yourself but for myself to be free ,
for me to get my life back together .
©natasha14
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