Happy ever after
Fairy tales
Fake tales
They don't exist
Not anymore
Tales of promises that were never kept
Hearts that got broken
With sad tones
Playing in the background
For in the back that's where
We all got stabbed
By them who we thought were real
Hopes lost
No peace but violence
It's a massacre
Blood everywhere
With silent cries
Hidden pain
It's a sad hidden scene
That only the victims see
In the midst of all these
I emerge
Hiding behind a mask
For smiling is a must
A hard task it is
Pain being the only language I speak
Tears rolling down my cheeks
I struggle to maintain my cool
I struggle to act okay
My tears have created an ocean
That drowns me every night
With no light but just darkness
All around me
My eating disorder is getting worse
I'm loosing weight and I hate it
Wait a minute
I just wanna die
Maybe in death this massacre will end
Behind this mask is a sad dying me
Behind this smile is a bitter young woman
Behind everything you see
Is a me giving up on life
It's me wishing I'd just die
Is me asking why
Why me
Why all these pain
Why all these suffering
I think I deserve an Oscar
For being the best actress of them all
For me everyday is an acting day
For I act strong
I act happy
I act jovial
I act and act that everything is okay
While deep down nothing is
I cry behind locked doors
I inflict pain on my self
Hoping the pain inside subsides
For my monsters
Won't stop tormenting me
They won't stop
I'm dead but living
For nothing matters anymore
I can't love my self
I can't love my damn self
And it hurts
Each time I look into my mirror
I hate her so much
I even wish I'd just strangle her to death
But I only end up breaking the mirror
Hurting my self more
Watching me bleed
Pleading for help
Maybe someone can rescue me
Rescue me from my self
For I'm trapped in my head
It's a battle field
And I'm loosing everyday
But again
No one should see my tears
No one can understand my fears
No one cares about my wasted years
For everyone is fighting a battle
Everyone is struggling with something
Some talk about it
Some hide it
Few win most loose
Like I said it's a massacre
That only the victims see
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain.
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M