There is a fire burning my soul
And the rage in my heart is full
It's like I'm being ripped to shreds
And by dawn my joy is dead
My mind burns bright with fire
From everyone's desires
My conscience is filled with rage
Suppressed by a crumbling cage
And even when I know release
I still will never know sweet peace
Because when I am once more thrown
I get back on my feet alone
When I finally unravel life's first ploy
The second comes to steal my joy
And when I've finally endured the pain
I lose with nothing left to gain
And when I realize I can't stop my fury
I see I'm held captive by my worry
I forgot the anxiety induced by strife
And I forgot the death induced by life
Breathing has gotten so hard
And my heart has gotten so scarred
I try to cling on to my faith
But I am haunted by my own wraith
And even with misery as such
I find myself trying still as much
To keep the image I had once held
Despite that sincerity is long expelled
But what if somehow there was a way
To make the suffering go away
I could be free and ease my mind
But by selling freedom of another kind
To rebel and equal with all the hate
But forsake the light and seal my fate
The only way to finally be done
Is to have lost and let the darkness have won
I can lose my pain and accept my death
But then my conscience will never rest
I'd be borrowing from another day
With worse yet heartbreak coming my way
So this madness that always I feel
Is one that can never fully heal
It boils thick through my blue veins
Around my wrists like iron chains
I cannot allow myself to sleep
For all the thoughts that run too deep
And with every moment I'm awake
My hand will never cease to shake
The tears feed an ocean of guilt
That tries to drown the lies I've built
Because I never can accept to be
The monster inside that I call me
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