Me 1. T
words are hard right now hard to collaborate,
maybe it's my karma this situation's one I creat.
maybe my past is why people choose things over me,
maybe if I was kinder I would be something he could see.
maybe if I never hurt anyone I'd get better treatment,
maybe this is my karma maybe this is my punishment.
it's every relationship so is it my fault did I start it,
how can I fix this or should I just give up and quit.
in my past I was selfish but now I always give more,
but is it too late can I not escape my past and close that door.
was I so bad that I can't make amends for my past,
so forever I guess I can live with being last.
I wish I could be chosen over those videos he loves so much,
I wish he wanted me but he prefers videos and I don't get his touch.
I'm kept around to be convenient my need are never met,
I'm not good enough to have what I need I'm not an asset.
me 2. A
it's ok I can make him want me love me,
be all he needs and wnats me to be.
I can make it ok I can make this right,
I can make this happen I can win this fight.
if I just keep my head up I will keep trying,
even if I feel that inside I'm dying.
I can do something anything to be the best,
better then the girls in the videos better then all the rest.
he will see me if it's the last thing I ever do,
even if this is something impossible to get through.
me 3. K
I expect all this no one ever really loves me,
I learnd this very fast and very early,
I've always been nothing and will continue to be so,
this is something I'm ok with and something I'll always know.
I will always be hurt and that is perfectly ok,
everyone has killed me inside day by day.
no one will ever not hurt me cynical yes that's me,
I'm forever trapped can't remember how it is to be free.
I'm locked away for a reason safe in this cage,
stuck in this story where pain and sorrow is every page.
so I hide away so I don't have to read the pages of pain,
hide away so no one can tell I'm nothing but a stain.
me 4. J
SILENCE... not nothing, not karma, not my job to fix it,
I'm sick of those thought because their nothing but bull sh it.
if videos are chosen over me,
then its not my problem he's to blind to see.
I'm a fu ck ing goddess not to compete,
it's not my problem I don't make him complete.
go ahead leave the needs to me,
because I'm better then you could ever be.
you hurt her so fu ck ing bad and you never know her pain,
but be fu ck ing careful or you'll know my rain.
YOU BETTER GIVE HER EVERYTHING I CANT TAKE HER FROM YOU,
AFTER I HURT YOU OF COURSE DO WHAT YOU PUT HER THROUGH.
YOU THINK YOU HAVE A PROBLEM NOT YET,
I'LL BE YOUR PROBLEM YOU'LL DESERVE WHAT YOU GET.
so you better man the fu ck up and chose her not the virtual sh it,
cos if you don't shes gonna give up and quit.
she is the world and you left her in a way,
she knew something was wrong every day.
she knew you didn't want her and she didn't say a anything,
she just felt neglected and like she was nothing.
she still feels like nothing like she will never be good enough,
she will always feel this but she'll just act tough.
I hate you for hurting my princess,
she's not worthless.
and I will never forgive for what you have done,
they all did this to her too so now including you thats everyone.
when every single person hurts her you expect her to trust,
but she will alway know she is not your must.
you can't hurt her and expect her to just be ok,
she's gonna have to heal a lot if ever maybe one day.
but you can't just expect her to let it all go,
she's so hurt she's breaking you know.
she doesn't understand why she's not what you need,
inside she's torn up and broken inside she bleeds.
so don't you dare expect her to be alright,
or to keep it in she's lost her light.
or once again can you not see her pain and depression,
can you not see your painful impression.
you ignored how depressed she got before,
this time it's sonething you WILL NOT ignore.
you'll never know how the f*ck this feels so your just fine,
but you fu ck ing let her express this cos you crossed a line.
I have to go fix this girl some how,
so that's all I have to say for now.
©
L