I can't help but cry
Oh how I try
I break
I shatter
And I fall apart
Take your time
But I can't recognize
Even my eyes
Clouded through the fog
It's so hard to carry on
Poked and provoked
Gears are falling out of motion
My circuits are tearing
And better is such a broad term
I'm not better
Temporarily maybe
But fixed
While temporary
Is more accurate
You break down
Someone else builds you back up
Till you break again
And again
And again
You help others
Forget about yourself
Do anything
To escape
Healthy or not
You don't care
As long as their not there
Emotions are weird
Taking over
Just to let you down again
Letting you trust
Just to get hurt
Being vulnerable is expensive
In every way
So there you are
Yet again
Sitting against a wall
Crying into your knees
Can you take anymore
You want to appear to be okay
Not let people waste a thought on you
Why would they need to worry
You comfort yourself
Being the only one you allow
To see cry
You've been taught
Drilled
Instructed
You feel strong
But show weak
Useless
Robot
And an idiot apparently
Why would you show behind the mask
Far to early
Never to late
Your hurting
But don't want to burden others
So you pretend
Fake
Let them believe
All of the lies
Those of which you say to keep safely
So the Robot can feel
But it's not ideal
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